We learnt about Culture Shock and it's five stages in university to prepare us for our year abroad.
The five stages being:
- The Honeymoon Stage
- The Disintegration Stage
- The Reintegration Stage
- The Autonomy Stage
- The Interdependence Stage
The honeymoon stage is easy to recognise as you feel like you're still on holiday. Everything is beautiful. Everything still is beautiful here. I am so happy to be here. I look at my desk with the mobile phone plan in Spanish and a easy to read story book in French and I feel lucky. I'm learning new languages, which I'm discovering is a hobby of mine, living in a new country, in a beautiful city, with a happy warm family. I know I am in the 1% when it comes to favourable fortunes.
Yet for the last 2 weeks I've been feeling sick. But not the cool respectable sick, like flu. No, it's the kind of sick you get when you're sad. Can homesickness be literal? Like seasickness? And is there a pill I can take for it? Because it feels like I'm on a beautiful cruise ship but I can't appreciate the experience while I'm in the bathroom spewing.
This article on the CNN website says that homesickness isn't really about 'home' but about our need for love, security and protection which we associate with home. Thus when we are away from these things, we miss them, and home.
But then it goes on to say that previous experience being away from home inoculates against a future bout of homesickness.
Now if this were true, I should be so immune that doctors are using my blood to make the aforementioned pill to cure homesickness.
This is the seventh time I've moved away from (a) home for a period longer than 2 months. I should be a pro at this.
But I'm not. I find myself thinking about my family, my friends, my exes. Wondering what they're doing with their lives as I begin yet another life experiment. I drift in and out of conscientious consciousness.
When I am confronted with Facebook, I see people eating dumplings and going to the mountains in Taiwan, I miss that.
I reminisce about good times, friends I miss, happy days that we shared.
|Carries stoop in New York with Taz|
|Cherry Blossom season|
|Dominick's in Chicago - our local supermarket|
|My first meal in Taiwan|
|Going to Green Island|
|Riding the 'L' in Chicago|
|Love in the Philippines|
|The road trip|
|Spring Scream in Kenting|
|The Statue of Liberty|
|Going to the beach|
The article is right; I miss the familiar. I need ol' familiar to come and give me a great big hug right about now.
It's probably why I've found comfort in the songs that I used to listen to while I was in Taiwan including the playlist in the previous post.
It's strange for me that after all this time, I still miss Taiwan. I don't think I missed England for this long. Is Taiwan the one I let get away...?